Caitlin looks incredulous. You killed Ben Li to save Linda? So that you could rape her later?
Panic arcs from Quinns eyes.
Do you have any idea what she went through? Caitlin asks. She
hanged
herself because of what you did.
There you go! he cries. She killed her
self.
That's not murder!
Enough of this, says Kelly. Lets get it done.
He turns to Caitlin as though for final permission, but her eyes are locked on Quinn.
Linda
begged
you to stop, she says. She begged you, but you kept on. She was
sick.
She was in pain. But you wouldn't stop.
I was only doing what Sands ordered me to do!
Liar!
He beat you for it.
What do you think that was but
show
? Quinn barks a hysterical laugh. He did that in case he had to let you go later. So you could tell everyone what a merciful bastard he is.
Caitlin turns to me, her eyes luminous in the half dark. How long would Quinn spend in prison?
I lower my voice. I cant answer that without knowing what happened. Everything that happened.
She closes her eyes. Beyond a reasonable doubt, she says instantly. That's the standard for murder, right?
Yes.
Hes guilty, Penn.
I know.
Come on then, ya fuckin cunt! Quinn roars, dropping his mask of submission. Stop asking for absolution. Kill me if you've got the guts!
She turns and takes a step toward him. You think I won't?
No. Youll have your hard boy there do it. Quinn leers at Caitlin like an uncle with a dirty secret. But why don't you tell them the real reason? Eh? You don't want your man to know what
really
happened in the kennel.
Caitlin raises the flashlight as though to strike him.
Go on, Quinn says, grinning. Tell him. Nothing to be ashamed of, lass. Tell him what you did for me, yeah?
When she doesn't speak, Quinn looks over her shoulder at me. She sucked me like a ten-dollar whore, Cage. didn't think twice about it. Theyll do anything for a little extra food and toilet paper. Swallowed it all too
Caitlin throws the flashlight, but Quinn deflects it with his bound forearms.
That's it! he says, laughing. That's my little wildcat. Katie likes it rough, gents. He winks at me. But then you know that already, don't you?
I want to smash my fist into his windpipe, but something keeps me rooted where I stand.
Or do you? Quinn looks back at Caitlin and raises an eyebrow. You play the lady for him, eh? That's the way of it? He laughs crudely, then begins describing Caitlins naked bodyaccuratelyand how she serviced him in the kennel in exchange for certain privileges.
Kelly watches Caitlin and me with animal alertness, waiting for a signal that weve had enough. One word from either of us would send Quinn into the lake. This knowledge feels like a loaded gun in my hand.
Caitlin stands like a sapling against the torrent of sewage coming from Quinns mouth, but her hands are quivering at her sides. If she had a gun, she might shoot him. With no more than six feet of deck separating her from Quinn, she could probably hit him. Kellys probably thinking the same thing. But no matter how Caitlin feels right now, she would never be able to live with herself if she did that. The three of us stand like judges being taunted by a madman we have the power to silence at any moment, but who lack the last measure of will to do so.
Quinn rants on, like a man driving a car a hundred miles an hour along a cliff edge. She took it in every hole, mate! She was scared at first, but I went deeper than you ever have. And she
loved
it. She told me that. Shell never forget it, and you won't either. No matter what you do to me tonight, youll lie awake thinking how I filled her up
Caitlin snaps first, lunging for him with outstretched hands, and only then do I realize what hes wanted throughout his tirade.
A hostage.
My thought is far ahead of my muscles. Even as I fling out my arms to pull Caitlin back, Quinns eyes flash with triumph, and he grabs her left arm with his bound hands, twisting her into him. Theyre almost one form when a blast of flame lights them like a flashbulb, and a deafening report echoes across the water.
Caitlin cries out, backpedaling away from Quinn and falling against me. Quinn staggers like a boxer whos taken a blow to the solar plexus, then looks down at the black hole between his shoulder and his heart. Clawing at the T-shirt, he grunts in disbelief, then looks up openmouthed at Kelly, his eyelids pinned back over bulging eyes. Kelly reaches out with his free hand and pushes Quinn backward, flipping him over the gunwale into the lake.
The splash barely registers in my ringing ears, but I feel Caitlin panting against me. Shes hyperventilating.
Are you hit? I ask, lifting her to her feet and pulling off her fleece jacket.
Shes not hit, Kelly says, sliding his pistol into a storage slot in the boats dash panel.
Is he dead? Caitlin asks, leaning on the gunwale and looking out into the dark.
If he is, he got off easy. A bullets a lot better than whats waiting out there.
People had to hear that shot. Oh, my God.
Its all right, I assure her, even as my heart bangs against my chest wall. People shoot snakes and armadillos all the time up here.
Its almost deer season, Kelly says. Already bow season. Folks will figure its poachers trying to get a jump on a big buck. There might be a game warden out this way, but twenty minutes from now, there won't be anything left to find.
Caitlin shivers in the wind. As I pick up her jacket and help her into it, Kelly eases the boat thirty yards up the chute. When he puts the engine in neutral again, the rumble of the engine quiets, and a heavy swish of water reaches us. Kelly removes a monocular night-vision scope from his pocket and pans across the water.
Do you see him? I ask.
No.
Caitlin turns from the gunwale, walks to me, and splays her palm on my chest. He was lying, she says, looking into my eyes with steady intensity. About raping me. He was just trying to hurt you. He thought
we were really going to kill him.
Werent we? Kelly asks.
She glances back at him, but Kelly keeps the scope trained on the surface of the water. Caitlin pushes her palm deeper into my chest.
You believe me, don't you?
Of course.
What else can I say?
If you ever worry about what he was saying, then Quinn got what he wanted.
I know.
Her anxious eyes remain on mine for several seconds; then she hugs her cheek against my chest. As I stroke her hair, three quick splashes come out of the dark.
Caitlin stiffens. Whats happening?
Its starting, says Kelly. Jesus.
Hes dead, isnt he?
A shriek of terror pierces the night.
Guess not.
Have they got him? she asks, squeezing my wrist tight enough to cut off my circulation.
The next scream is defiant, like that of a hiker shouting at a grizzly bear to forestall an attack. Sound can carry for miles over water, and from this distance its as though the nightmare is playing out only a few feet from us. Wild splashing echoes over the lake, as though a dozen kids are leaping into it from tree limbs. Then a high wail rolls out of the dark, rising in pitch until a glottal squawk cuts it off, and I know without looking that Quinns head was just dragged beneath the surface. The sound of thrashing water makes my skin crawl.
I cant listen, Caitlin says, shuddering against me. Do something, Kelly. Make it stop.
Keeping the night-vision scope trained on its target, Kelly reaches back blindly toward the dashboard. I step around Caitlin and give him his pistol from the storage slot. He raises it quickly with his right hand, aiming along a path parallel to the scope held against his eye.
I need light.
I scoop the flashlight from the aft deck and point it along the path of his aim, but I see neither man nor beast in its beam, only a churning maelstrom of water like a sand boil behind a saturated levee.
My God, breathes Caitlin.
Hes gone, Kelly says with finality.
We should go too.
Kelly lowers his pistol, but he doesn't take his eyes from the slowly subsiding frenzy.
Lets
go,
Caitlin pleads. I want to forget this.
I nod, thinking,
You never will.
EPILOGUE
FIVE DAYS LATER
The season has turned at last. Before we even got off Lake St. John, a wall of rain rolled out of the west and covered the land for twelve hours before moving on. Behind the rain came a cold wind that took the last illusions of summer with it. The leaves on most trees are still green, some so dark they're almost black, but now the bluff is splashed with orange and yellow sprays of autumnal color.
Caitlin and I are on the river again, this time in Drew Elliotts old Bayrider, which I borrowed from his storage building. We've come to spread Linda Churchs ashes. We chose the river because it was the place where Tim and Linda found each other. On shore, Tim belonged to his wife and son. But on the
Magnolia Queen,
where he went to work as a sort of penance for his squandered birthright, he found another lost soul who might have become much more, had she been born with Tims advantages.
Caitlin and I haven't spoken much since the night Quinn died on Lake St. John. I've spent most of my private time with Annie and my parents, mulling over the past and wondering about our future, but the aftermath of what happened on the
Magnolia Queen
has kept Caitlin busy day and night. In addition to writing stories and fending off requests from other media, she has funded and overseen the effort to rescue the fighting dogs Sands kept on both sides of the
river, and also to return the many stolen pets to their owners. Some of the fighting dogs had to be put down, but others will be adopted. So far, twenty-three dogs and cats have been returned to homes as far away as Little Rock, Arkansas. I suspect that this whirlwind of activity has helped distract Caitlin from the aftermath of what we did on the lake that night.
Kelly left town the morning after Quinn died. We walked down to the bluff together and watched the big diesel boats push barges up and down the river for a while. The
Magnolia Queen
had already been towed to a refitting yard for repairs, so once again Pierces Landing Road led only to an empty stretch of water. Leaning on the fence near the gazebo, Kelly told me that hed spent the previous night reading a copy of Mark Twains
Life on the Mississippi
that my father had lent him. It seemed an odd choice after what wed done at the lake, but I supposed Kelly needed a way to come down from all that had happened that final day.
You know, he said, if you count the Missouri as the main channel of this river, the Mississippi was the longest river in the world until army engineers shortened it by three hundred miles. Longer than both the Nile and the Amazon.
I didn't know that.
Me either. In 1811, there was an earthquake so big that part of the river flowed backward for hours.
I have heard that story. New Madrid, right?
Kelly nodded. Created a hole so big that the lower Mississippi flowed backward until the hole filled up. Theres a lake there now. Its in Tennessee.
Kelly rarely chatters to hear his own voice, so his musings prompted a question. Why do I get the feeling theres a message here? Are you going Zen on me?
Maybe so, grasshopper.
Change.
That's the message. Man wants to control this river, but the river wants to go where it will. And in the end, it will.
I still don't get it. Beyond the obvious, I mean.
Look out there, he said, gesturing with his arm to take in the great sweep of the river. River pilots like Sam Clemens had to learn everything about the Mississippi. Every bend, cut, crossing, chute, island, hill, sandbar, and snag along thirteen hundred miles.
Then they had to learn it all over again on each passage, because the river changed that fast. Not many men had the brains to do that, and even fewer had the guts to risk the lives of a boat full of people at every turn. Steamboats wrecked all the time.
Uh-huh. And?
Well
I could see how a river pilot might start feeling like his job was futileeven absurd. There certainly were easier ways to make money.
I suddenly saw where he was going. Like writing, for instance?
Well, Twain did a little writing, yeah. But he did his share of piloting too. And he was proud of it.
How much piloting did he do?
I'm not sure. Kelly turned to me, his blue eyes as mild as ever. But I know one thing. He never walked off a boat halfway down the river, leaving his passengers stranded in a storm.
I nodded to show that Id taken Kellys point, but my thoughts werent on local politics. Despite my promise to Caitlin, Seamus Quinns final raving words had been preying on my mind since the last night on the lake.
Whats wrong? Kelly asked. Somethings eating you, man. Cough it up.
Do you think Caitlin was telling the truth? About Quinn?
His face darkened. You think shed lie about being raped?
Maybe. To protect me. So Id never have to think about it. I want to believe her, but
she was ready to have you throw Quinn out of the boat. She wouldn't have done that unless hed done something terrible to
her
personally.
Kelly shook his head. I disagree. For some people, seeing somebody suffer an atrocity can be as bad as it happening to them. Worse, sometimes. They feel impotent, you know? Guilty because they stood by and did nothing.
Uncertainty must have shown on my face, because Kelly put his hand on my shoulder and said, I'm telling you, thats what happened with Caitlin and Linda. Quinn didn't rape Caitlin.
He described her naked body.
Kelly sighs heavily. Bro. I was alone with him for a long time before you guys showed up. Theres
nothing